A NEW ENGLAND NUN
BY MARY E. WILKINS FREEMAN
It was late in the afternoon, and the light was waning. There
was a difference in the look of the tree shadows out in the
yard. Somewhere in the distance cows were lowing and a little
bell was tinkling; now and then a farm-wagon tilted by, and
the dust flew; some blue-shirted laborers with shovels over
their shoulders plodded past; little swarms of flies were
dancing up and down before the peoples' faces in the soft
air. There seemed to be a gentle stir arising over everything
for the mere sake of subsidence -- a very premonition of
rest and hush and night.
This soft diurnal commotion was over Louisa Ellis also. She
had been peacefully sewing at her sitting-room window all
the afternoon. Now she quilted her needle carefully into her
work, which she folded precisely, and laid in a basket with
her thimble and thread and scissors. Louisa Ellis could not
remember that ever in her life she had mislaid one of these
little feminine appurtenances, which had become, from long
use and constant association, a very part of her personality.
Louisa tied a green apron round her waist, and got out a
flat straw hat with a green ribbon. Then she went into the
garden with a little blue crockery bowl, to pick some currants
for her tea. After the currants were picked she sat on the
back door-step and stemmed them, collecting the stems carefully
in her apron, and afterwards throwing them into the hen-coop.
She looked sharply at the grass beside the step to see if any
had fallen there.
Louisa was slow and still in her movements; it took her a
long time to prepare her tea; but when ready it was set forth
with as much grace as if she had been a veritable guest to
her own self. The little square table stood exactly in the
centre of the kitchen, and was covered with a starched linen
cloth whose border pattern of flowers glistened. Louisa had
a damask napkin on her tea-tray, where were arranged a cut-glass
tumbler full of teaspoons, a silver cream-pitcher, a china
sugar-bowl, and one pink china cup and saucer. Louisa used
china every day -- something which none of her neighbors did.
They whispered about it among themselves. Their daily tables
were laid with common crockery, their sets of best china stayed
in the parlor closet, and Louisa Ellis was no richer nor better
bred than they. Still she would use the china. She had for her
supper a glass dish full of sugared currants, a plate of little
cakes, and one of light white biscuits. Also a leaf or two of
lettuce, which she cut up daintily. Louisa was very fond of
lettuce, which she raised to perfection in her little garden.
She ate quite heartily, though in a delicate, pecking way;
it seemed almost surprising that any considerable bulk of the
food should vanish.
After tea she filled a plate with nicely baked thin corn-cakes,
and carried them out into the back-yard.
"Caesar!" she called. "Caesar! Caesar!"
There was a little rush, and the clank of a chain, and a large
yellow-and-white dog appeared at the door of his tiny hut, which
was half hidden among the tall grasses and flowers. Louisa patted
him and gave him the corn-cakes. Then she returned to the house
and washed the tea-things, polishing the china carefully. The
twilight had deepened; the chorus of the frogs floated in at
the open window wonderfully loud and shrill, and once in a while
a long sharp drone from a tree-toad pierced it. Louisa took off
her green gingham apron, disclosing a shorter one of pink and
white print. She lighted her lamp, and sat down again with her
In about half an hour Joe Dagget came. She heard his heavy step
on the walk, and rose and took off her pink-and-white apron.
Under that was still another -- white linen with a little cambric
edging on the bottom; that was Louisa's company apron. She never
wore it without her calico sewing apron over it unless she had
a guest. She had barely folded the pink and white one with
methodical haste and laid it in a table-drawer when the door
opened and Joe Dagget entered.
He seemed to fill up the whole room. A little yellow canary that
had been asleep in his green cage at the south window woke up
and fluttered wildly, beating his little yellow wings against
the wires. He always did so when Joe Dagget came into the room.
"Good-evening," said Louisa. She extended her hand with a kind of
"Good-evening, Louisa," returned the man, in a loud voice.
She placed a chair for him, and they sat facing each other, with
the table between them. He sat bolt-upright, toeing out his heavy
feet squarely, glancing with a good-humored uneasiness around the
room. She sat gently erect, folding her slender hands in her
"Been a pleasant day," remarked Dagget.
"Real pleasant," Louisa assented, softly. "Have you been haying?"
she asked, after a little while.
"Yes, I've been haying all day, down in the ten-acre lot. Pretty
"It must be."
"Yes, it's pretty hot work in the sun."
"Is your mother well to-day?"
"Yes, mother's pretty well."
"I suppose Lily Dyer's with her now?"
Dagget colored. "Yes, she's with her," he answered, slowly.
He was not very young, but there was a boyish look about his large
face. Louisa was not quite as old as he, her face was fairer and
smoother, but she gave people the impression of being older.
"I suppose she's a good deal of help to your mother," she said,
"I guess she is; I don't know how mother'd get along without her,"
said Dagget, with a sort of embarrassed warmth.
"She looks like a real capable girl. She's pretty-looking too,"
"Yes, she is pretty fair looking."
Presently Dagget began fingering the books on the table. There
was a square red autograph album, and a Young Lady's Gift-Book
which had belonged to Louisa's mother. He took them up one after
the other and opened them; then laid them down again, the album
on the Gift-Book.
Louisa kept eyeing them with mild uneasiness. Finally she rose and
changed the position of the books, putting the album underneath.
That was the way they had been arranged in the first place.
Dagget gave an awkward little laugh. "Now what difference did it
make which book was on top?" said he.
Louisa looked at him with a deprecating smile. "I always keep them
that way," murmured she.
"You do beat everything," said Dagget, trying to laugh again. His
large face was flushed.
He remained about an hour longer, then rose to take leave. Going out,
he stumbled over a rug, and trying to recover himself, hit Louisa's
work-basket on the table, and knocked it on the floor.
He looked at Louisa, then at the rolling spools; he ducked himself
awkwardly toward them, but she stopped him. "Never mind," said she;
"I'll pick them up after you're gone."
She spoke with a mild stiffness. Either she was a little disturbed,
or his nervousness affected her, and made her seem constrained in her
effort to reassure him.
When Joe Dagget was outside he drew in the sweet evening air with a
sigh, and felt much as an innocent and perfectly well-intentioned bear
might after his exit from a china shop.
Louisa, on her part, felt much as the kind-hearted, long-suffering
owner of the china shop might have done after the exit of the bear.
She tied on the pink, then the green apron, picked up all the scattered
treasures and replaced them in her work-basket, and straightened the
rug. Then she set the lamp on the floor, and began sharply examining
the carpet. She even rubbed her fingers over it, and looked at them.
"He's tracked in a good deal of dust," she murmured. "I thought he
Louisa got a dust-pan and brush, and swept Joe Dagget's track carefully.
If he could have known it, it would have increased his perplexity and
uneasiness, although it would not have disturbed his loyalty in the
least. He came twice a week to see Louisa Ellis, and every time,
sitting there in her delicately sweet room, he felt as if surrounded
by a hedge of lace. He was afraid to stir lest he should put a clumsy
foot or hand through the fairy web, and he had always the consciousness
that Louisa was watching fearfully lest he should.
Still the lace and Louisa commanded perforce his perfect respect
and patience and loyalty. They were to be married in a month, after
a singular courtship which had lasted for a matter of fifteen years.
For fourteen out of the fifteen years the two had not once seen each
other, and they had seldom exchanged letters. Joe had been all those
years in Australia, where he had gone to make his fortune, and where
he had stayed until he made it. He would have stayed fifty years if
it had taken so long, and come home feeble and tottering, or never
come home at all, to marry Louisa.
But the fortune had been made in the fourteen years, and he had come
home now to marry the woman who had been patiently and unquestioningly
waiting for him all that time.
Shortly after they were engaged he had announced to Louisa his
determination to strike out into new fields, and secure a competency
before they should be married. She had listened and assented with the
sweet serenity which never failed her, not even when her lover set
forth on that long and uncertain journey. Joe, buoyed up as he was
by his sturdy determination, broke down a little at the last, but
Louisa kissed him with a mild blush, and said good-by.
"It won't be for long," poor Joe had said, huskily; but it was for
In that length of time much had happened. Louisa's mother and brother
had died, and she was all alone in the world. But greatest happening of
all -- a subtle happening which both were too simple to understand --
Louisa's feet had turned into a path, smooth maybe under a calm, serene
sky, but so straight and unswerving that it could only meet a check at
her grave, and so narrow that there was no room for any one at her side.
Louisa's first emotion when Joe Dagget came home (he had not apprised
her of his coming) was consternation, although she would not admit it
to herself, and he never dreamed of it. Fifteen years ago she had been
in love with him -- at least she considered herself to be. Just at that
time, gently acquiescing with and falling into the natural drift of
girlhood, she had seen marriage ahead as a reasonable feature and a
probable desirability of life. She had listened with calm docility to
her mother's views upon the subject. Her mother was remarkable for
her cool sense and sweet, even temperament. She talked wisely to her
daughter when Joe Dagget presented himself, and Louisa accepted him
with no hesitation. He was the first lover she had ever had.
She had been faithful to him all these years. She had never dreamed
of the possibility of marrying any one else. Her life, especially for
the last seven years, had been full of a pleasant peace, she had never
felt discontented nor impatient over her lover's absence; still she had
always looked forward to his return and their marriage as the inevitable
conclusion of things. However, she had fallen into a way of placing it
so far in the future that it was almost equal to placing it over the
boundaries of another life.
When Joe came she had been expecting him, and expecting to be married
for fourteen years, but she was as much surprised and taken aback as
if she had never thought of it.
Joe's consternation came later. He eyed Louisa with an instant
confirmation of his old admiration. She had changed but little. She
still kept her pretty manner and soft grace, and was, he considered,
every whit as attractive as ever. As for himself, his stent was done;
he had turned his face away from fortune-seeking, and the old winds of
romance whistled as loud and sweet as ever through his ears. All the
song which he had been wont to hear in them was Louisa; he had for a
long time a loyal belief that he heard it still, but finally it seemed
to him that although the winds sang always that one song, it had another
name. But for Louisa the wind had never more than murmured; now it had
gone down, and everything was still. She listened for a little while
with half-wistful attention; then she turned quietly away and went
to work on her wedding clothes.
Joe had made some extensive and quite magnificent alterations in his
house. It was the old homestead; the newly-married couple would live
there, for Joe could not desert his mother, who refused to leave her old
home. So Louisa must leave hers. Every morning, rising and going about
among her neat maidenly possessions, she felt as one looking her last
upon the faces of dear friends. It was true that in a measure she could
take them with her, but, robbed of their old environments, they would
appear in such new guises that they would almost cease to be themselves.
Then there were some peculiar features of her happy solitary life which
she would probably be obliged to relinquish altogether. Sterner tasks
than these graceful but half-needless ones would probably devolve upon
her. There would be a large house to care for; there would be company to
entertain; there would be Joe's rigorous and feeble old mother to wait
upon; and it would be contrary to all thrifty village traditions for her
to keep more than one servant. Louisa had a little still, and she used
to occupy herself pleasantly in summer weather with distilling the sweet
and aromatic essences from roses and peppermint and spearmint. By-and-by
her still must be laid away. Her store of essences was already
considerable, and there would be no time for her to distil for the mere
pleasure of it. Then Joe's mother would think it foolishness; she had
already hinted her opinion in the matter. Louisa dearly loved to sew a
linen seam, not always for use, but for the simple, mild pleasure which
she took in it. She would have been loath to confess how more than once
she had ripped a seam for the mere delight of sewing it together again.
Sitting at her window during long sweet afternoons, drawing her needle
gently through the dainty fabric, she was peace itself. But there
was small chance of such foolish comfort in the future. Joe's mother,
domineering, shrewd old matron that she was even in her old age, and
very likely even Joe himself, with his honest masculine rudeness, would
laugh and frown down all these pretty but senseless old maiden ways.
Louisa had almost the enthusiasm of an artist over the mere order and
cleanliness of her solitary home. She had throbs of genuine triumph at
the sight of the window-panes which she had polished until they shone
like jewels. She gloated gently over her orderly bureau-drawers, with
their exquisitely folded contents redolent with lavender and sweet
clover and very purity. Could she be sure of the endurance of even
this? She had visions, so startling that she half repudiated them as
indelicate, of coarse masculine belongings strewn about in endless
litter; of dust and disorder arising necessarily from a coarse
masculine presence in the midst of all this delicate harmony.
Among her forebodings of disturbance, not the least was with regard to
Caesar. Caesar was a veritable hermit of a dog. For the greater part of
his life he had dwelt in his secluded hut, shut out from the society of
his kind and all innocent canine joys. Never had Caesar since his early
youth watched at a woodchuck's hole; never had he known the delights
of a stray bone at a neighbor's kitchen door. And it was all on account
of a sin committed when hardly out of his puppyhood. No one knew the
possible depth of remorse of which this mild-visaged, altogether
innocent-looking old dog might be capable; but whether or not he had
encountered remorse, he had encountered a full measure of righteous
retribution. Old Caesar seldom lifted up his voice in a growl or a bark;
he was fat and sleepy; there were yellow rings which looked like
spectacles around his dim old eyes; but there was a neighbor who bore
on his hand the imprint of several of Caesar's sharp white youthful
teeth, and for that he had lived at the end of a chain, all alone in
a little hut, for fourteen years. The neighbor, who was choleric and
smarting with the pain of his wound, had demanded either Caesar's death
or complete ostracism. So Louisa's brother, to whom the dog had belonged,
had built him his little kennel and tied him up. It was now fourteen
years since, in a flood of youthful spirits, he had inflicted that
memorable bite, and with the exception of short excursions, always at
the end of the chain, under the strict guardianship of his master or
Louisa, the old dog had remained a close prisoner. It is doubtful if,
with his limited ambition, he took much pride in the fact, but it is
certain that he was possessed of considerable cheap fame. He was
regarded by all the children in the village and by many adults as a
very monster of ferocity. St. George's dragon could hardly have surpassed
in evil repute Louisa Ellis's old yellow dog. Mothers charged their
children with solemn emphasis not to go too near to him, and the
children listened and believed greedily, with a fascinated appetite for
terror, and ran by Louisa's house stealthily, with many sidelong and
backward glances at the terrible dog. If perchance he sounded a hoarse
bark, there was a panic. Wayfarers chancing into Louisa's yard eyed him
with respect, and inquired if the chain were stout. Caesar at large might
have seemed a very ordinary dog, and excited no comment whatever;
chained, his reputation overshadowed him, so that he lost his own proper
outlines and looked darkly vague and enormous. Joe Dagget, however, with
his good-humored sense and shrewdness, saw him as he was. He strode
valiantly up to him and patted him on the head, in spite of Louisa's
soft clamor of warning, and even attempted to set him loose. Louisa grew
so alarmed that he desisted, but kept announcing his opinion in the
matter quite forcibly at intervals. "There ain't a better-natured dog
in town," he would say, "and it's down-right cruel to keep him tied up
there. Some day I'm going to take him out."
Louisa had very little hope that he would not, one of these days, when
their interests and possessions should be more completely fused in one.
She pictured to herself Caesar on the rampage through the quiet and
unguarded village. She saw innocent children bleeding in his path. She
was herself very fond of the old dog, because he had belonged to her
dead brother, and he was always very gentle with her; still she had
great faith in his ferocity. She always warned people not to go too
near him. She fed him on ascetic fare of corn-mush and cakes, and never
fired his dangerous temper with heating and sanguinary diet of flesh
and bones. Louisa looked at the old dog munching his simple fare, and
thought of her approaching marriage and trembled. Still no anticipation
of disorder and confusion in lieu of sweet peace and harmony, no
forebodings of Caesar on the rampage, no wild fluttering of her little
yellow canary, were sufficient to turn her a hair's-breadth. Joe Dagget
had been fond of her and working for her all these years. It was not
for her, whatever came to pass, to prove untrue and break his heart.
She put the exquisite little stitches into her wedding-garments, and the
time went on until it was only a week before her wedding-day. It was a
Tuesday evening, and the wedding was to be a week from Wednesday.
There was a full moon that night. About nine o'clock Louisa strolled
down the road a little way. There were harvest-fields on either hand,
bordered by low stone walls. Luxuriant clumps of bushes grew beside
the wall, and trees -- wild cherry and old apple-trees -- at intervals.
Presently Louisa sat down on the wall and looked about her with mildly
sorrowful reflectiveness. Tall shrubs of blueberry and meadow-sweet,
all woven together and tangled with blackberry vines and horsebriers,
shut her in on either side. She had a little clear space between them.
Opposite her, on the other side of the road, was a spreading tree; the
moon shone between its boughs, and the leaves twinkled like silver. The
road was bespread with a beautiful shifting dapple of silver and shadow;
the air was full of a mysterious sweetness. "I wonder if it's wild
grapes?" murmured Louisa. She sat there some time. She was just thinking
of rising, when she heard footsteps and low voices, and remained quiet.
It was a lonely place, and she felt a little timid. She thought she
would keep still in the shadow and let the persons, whoever they might
be, pass her.
But just before they reached her the voices ceased, and the footsteps.
She understood that their owners had also found seats upon the stone
wall. She was wondering if she could not steal away unobserved, when
the voice broke the stillness. It was Joe Dagget's. She sat still and
The voice was announced by a loud sigh, which was as familiar as itself.
"Well," said Dagget, "you've made up your mind, then, I suppose?"
"Yes," returned another voice; "I'm going day after to-morrow."
"That's Lily Dyer," thought Louisa to herself. The voice embodied
itself in her mind. She saw a girl tall and full-figured, with a
firm, fair face, looking fairer and firmer in the moonlight, her
strong yellow hair braided in a close knot. A girl full of a calm
rustic strength and bloom, with a masterful way which might have
be-seemed a princess. Lily Dyer was a favorite with the village
folk; she had just the qualities to arouse the admiration. She
was good and handsome and smart. Louisa had often heard her
"Well," said Joe Dagget, "I ain't got a word to say."
"I don't know what you could say," returned Lily Dyer.
"Not a word to say," repeated Joe, drawing out the words heavily.
Then there was a silence. "I ain't sorry," he began at last, "that
that happened yesterday -- that we kind of let on how we felt to
each other. I guess it's just as well we knew. Of course I can't
do anything any different. I'm going right on an' get married next
week. I ain't going back on a woman that's waited for me fourteen
years, an' break her heart."
"If you should jilt her to-morrow, I wouldn't have you," spoke up the
girl, with sudden vehemence.
"Well, I ain't going to give you the chance," said he; "but I don't
believe you would, either."
"You'd see I wouldn't. Honor's honor, an' right's right. An' I'd never
think anything of any man that went against 'em for me or any other
girl; you'd find that out, Joe Dagget."
"Well, you'll find out fast enough that I ain't going against 'em for
you or any other girl," returned he. Their voices sounded almost as
if they were angry with each other. Louisa was listening eagerly.
"I'm sorry you feel as if you must go away," said Joe, "but I don't
know but it's best."
"Of course it's best. I hope you and I have got common-sense."
"Well, I suppose you're right." Suddenly Joe's voice got an undertone
of tenderness. "Say, Lily," said he, "I'll get along well enough myself,
but I can't bear to think -- You don't suppose you're going to fret
much over it?"
"I guess you'll find out I sha'n't fret much over a married man."
"Well, I hope you won't -- I hope you won't, Lily. God knows I do.
And -- I hope -- one of these days -- you'll -- come across somebody
"I don't see any reason why I shouldn't." Suddenly her tone changed. She
spoke in a sweet, clear voice, so loud that she could have been heard
across the street. "No, Joe Dagget," said she, "I'll never marry any
other man as long as I live. I've got good sense, an' I ain't going to
break my heart nor make a fool of myself; but I'm never going to be
married, you can be sure of that. I ain't that sort of a girl to feel
this way twice."
Louisa heard an exclamation and a soft commotion behind the bushes;
then Lily spoke again -- the voice sounded as if she had risen. "This
must be put a stop to," said she. "We've stayed here long enough. I'm
Louisa sat there in a daze, listening to their retreating steps. After
a while she got up and slunk softly home herself. The next day she
did her housework methodically; that was as much a matter of course as
breathing; but she did not sew on her wedding-clothes. She sat at her
window and meditated. In the evening Joe came. Louisa Ellis had never
known that she had any diplomacy in her, but when she came to look for
it that night she found it, although meek of its kind, among her little
feminine weapons. Even now she could hardly believe that she had heard
aright, and that she would not do Joe a terrible injury should she break
her troth-plight. She wanted to sound him without betraying too soon
her own inclinations in the matter. She did it successfully, and they
finally came to an understanding; but it was a difficult thing, for he
was as afraid of betraying himself as she.
She never mentioned Lily Dyer. She simply said that while she had no
cause of complaint against him, she had lived so long in one way that
she shrank from making a change.
"Well, I never shrank, Louisa," said Dagget. "I'm going to be honest
enough to say that I think maybe it's better this way; but if you'd
wanted to keep on, I'd have stuck to you till my dying day. I hope
you know that."
"Yes, I do," said she.
That night she and Joe parted more tenderly than they had done for a
long time. Standing in the door, holding each other's hands, a last
great wave of regretful memory swept over them.
"Well, this ain't the way we've thought it was all going to end,
is it, Louisa?" said Joe.
She shook her head. There was a little quiver on her placid face.
"You let me know if there's ever anything I can do for you," said
he. "I ain't ever going to forget you, Louisa." Then he kissed her,
and went down the path.
Louisa, all alone by herself that night, wept a little, she hardly
knew why; but the next morning, on waking, she felt like a queen
who, after fearing lest her domain be wrested away from her, sees
it firmly insured in her possession.
Now the tall weeds and grasses might cluster around Caesar's little
hermit hut, the snow might fall on its roof year in and year out, but
he never would go on a rampage through the unguarded village. Now the
little canary might turn itself into a peaceful yellow ball night after
night, and have no need to wake and flutter with wild terror against
its bars. Louisa could sew linen seams, and distil roses, and dust and
polish and fold away in lavender, as long as she listed. That afternoon
she sat with her needle-work at the window, and felt fairly steeped
in peace. Lily Dyer, tall and erect and blooming, went past; but she
felt no qualm. If Louisa Ellis had sold her birthright she did not know
it, the taste of the pottage was so delicious, and had been her sole
satisfaction for so long. Serenity and placid narrowness had become to
her as the birthright itself. She gazed ahead through a long reach of
future days strung together like pearls in a rosary, every one like the
others, and all smooth and flawless and innocent, and her heart went up
in thankfulness. Outside was the fervid summer afternoon; the air was
filled with the sounds of the busy harvest of men and birds and bees;
there were halloos, metallic clatterings, sweet calls, and long
hummings. Louisa sat, prayerfully numbering her days, like an
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